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silverweb

(16,402 posts)
29. Better late than never.
Sat Feb 25, 2012, 04:57 PM
Feb 2012

[font color="navy" face="Verdana"]I've been meaning to post in this thread since the group began, but never quite got around to it. I do, however, check in at least once daily to look for bits of inspiration and insight; in time, maybe I can even offer some.

My path has been a long and winding one, but the theme that directed it was always a search for the basic, universal truths behind all religions. My mind has filtered everything I've learned in terms of aligning similarities, while discarding inconsistencies and dogmatic differences.

I started out a very sheltered, devout little Catholic girl, even to the point of wanting to join a contemplative order of nuns for a while. I grew up with the pre-Vatican II dogmas, accepted them all without question, and believed them with all my heart. Disillusionment came when I hit the real world, and saw the corruption, deceit, hypocrisy, and cruelty in the institution and many of its representatives. The fairy tales all fell apart and I fell into a black hole for a time.

Gradually, I started looking around again, and in my early 20s I decided to explore and compare other religions. On my own, I read introductory books about all the major world religions and even some of the "minor" ones. I was looking for a unifying Theory of Everything for the spiritual realm, because I never lost the need to nurture a spiritual life that carries over into everyday living.

My driving force was to "walk the talk" (while learning from my own failures that it's difficult at best to live up to one's own ideal), but first I had to define the universal parameters of the "talk." I was convinced that no one set of doctrines had all the answers, and that most of the rules and all of the rituals were superfluous.

My explorations expanded to include neopaganism (and wicca), shamanic traditions, pantheism, and humanism. Every time, I turned away when I felt that dogmas and rituals began to obscure the underlying truths from which each tradition sprang.
The other thing I searched for was the intersection and compatibility between science and religion. I strongly believed then, as now, that there can be no contradiction between the two, and that any so-called contradictions are the result of our limited information and understanding.

When I first learned about quantum physics, I started reading everything I could about that. Having trouble wrapping my head around it is an understatement, but that was a wondrous thing in itself. It resonated on a spiritual and visceral level. Pantheism made much more sense all of a sudden. Wiccan "magik" suddenly had some scientific validity (ritualized noetics). The much maligned and misunderstood "emptiness" of Buddhism suddenly made perfect sense. And on and on.

Now that I'm in late middle age and semi-retired, I don't have the daily stresses and distractions that I used to. My time, except for a few hours for work each evening, is pretty much my own. There's plenty of time to read, reflect, and pull all the bits together. The path I continue on still meanders but is the same -- defining the spiritual Theory of Everything, and living my life in consistent accord with what I've come to realize (often a great challenge).

Where I'm at right now is a combination of Buddhism and pantheism, with elements from other religions tossed in for aesthetic value.

Oxymoron, I only recently discovered your Order of Interbeing, and have had The Five Mindfulness Trainings prominently displayed for daily reading for about a week now. Living each day mindfully and in love with the Oneness that we are all part of is a joyous thing, although living consistently in mundane harmony with those convictions is also a lifetime challenge. I'm just beginning.

Whew! Just realized how long-winded this is, but, well... you asked.


I'm a salad-bar semi-Buddhist GliderGuider Jan 2012 #1
Welcome,GliderGuider oxymoron Jan 2012 #3
A good Buddhist, tama Jan 2012 #5
I'm an Ameriyana Jubu. ellisonz Jan 2012 #2
Welcome, Ellisonz oxymoron Jan 2012 #4
Just made a journey tama Jan 2012 #6
I'm quite sure GliderGuider Jan 2012 #7
How could he tama Jan 2012 #8
More boring logic: tama Jan 2012 #9
Thank you. GliderGuider Jan 2012 #13
Zen student here YankeyMCC Jan 2012 #10
I don't follow any one specific path Odin2005 Jan 2012 #11
Western Theravada FreeState Jan 2012 #12
No specific path onestepforward Jan 2012 #14
Eclectic Buddhist Here Now Newest Reality Jan 2012 #15
Have practiced zen marions ghost Jan 2012 #19
Tibet and Bhutan riverwalker Jan 2012 #16
I would love to hear... ellisonz Feb 2012 #28
Just a plain ol' Buddhist ZenLefty Jan 2012 #17
Well, GliderGuider Jan 2012 #18
You sound as though you started like my noobie interest is going... Ruby Reason Feb 2012 #24
Theravada Buddhist grantcart Jan 2012 #20
Interesting connection to my own experience YankeyMCC Jan 2012 #21
Wow DryHump Jan 2012 #22
Another Jubu, appreciating the meandering path JudyM Jan 2012 #23
Aloha! ellisonz Feb 2012 #26
Wondering and new (but not Buddhist)... Ruby Reason Feb 2012 #25
Welcome! ellisonz Feb 2012 #27
Better late than never. silverweb Feb 2012 #29
Welcome silverweb! ellisonz Feb 2012 #30
Thanks, ellisonz. silverweb Feb 2012 #31
On The Path cliff48 Mar 2012 #32
Welcome to the Buddhism group and Welcome to DU! ellisonz Mar 2012 #33
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