The cost of being a loner

[dembotoz]

3. my best and pretty much only friend and i are both rather reclusive.

i do have some family around if needed but she does not.

i am her support system. a "burden" i bear with a smile.
I am the one who drives to and from the doc for THOSE tests
I am the one who feeds and checks in on her cats when she is away on business....rather often actually.


I have been pondering this as of late because my other close friend yes other as in the only other....close friend died just over a month ago. she on the other hand had a family the size and scope would have given the tv family waltons a run for the money.
Her parents retired to a bigger house so they could more easily hold more family events. was always invited to this and that event and quite frankly they intimidated the hell out of me.....i would beg off because that is what us loners do....her funeral was a larger but tasteful family centered event as i would have anticipated it would be

I do not think my remaining friend would want a service cause i think she is afraid i might be the only one there........hmmmm
i on the other hand don't really care if anyone shows up for mine...so why bother with it