☦ Things aren't good. I'm not well. Scared. eom

[sprinkleeninow]

7. Physically, mentally, spiritually.

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Some here know. Husband of 46+ years reposed in 2019 of cardiac arrest. This year is the worst. From like February. I feel imprisioned and can't break free. I don't like overly psyche explanations, but I read online:
perhaps delayed/complicated/unresolved grief. Plus something physical. Doc visit last Thursday. Not COVID, not really another UTI (but at-home test showed 'yes'), not strep. I'm more short of breath than usual. Mild COVID in '21 left me w/AFib. This worse feeling of combined whatever started almost 2 months ago. I was pretty good before that. Of course, the political climate we're experiencing just exacerbates my condition. Trying to watch my thoughts and my words. I want to curse nearly all. I've been strong natured my whole life, but now I'm feeling way broken.