Or at least, that's the latest rumor. So some of my fears are allayed.
I'm no longer listening to the rumors. I think the break through for me started with the blow up with my sister. All of the screaming abuse she had heaped on me over the years blew right back at her when I finally screamed at her. I gave her back all of her rage, which I guess has been stuck inside me for decades.
That unblocked mess enabled some energy to start flowing again. My elbow was a tad sore yesterday. This morning coming in from the barn in the pouring rain, I stopped to weed. I stayed out for an hour, weeding and then digging up the rogue valerian, angelica and johnny jump-ups that have been taking over the perennial garden. Then replanted them on Algiers' grave. Valerian and angelica grow to very large, dramatic plants, which now will provide a backdrop against the woods. In front, some summer bulbs I planted are coming in, and there are masses of the yellow and purple johnny jump-ups. I will add additional bulbs in the fall. Daffodils, crocuses, etc. to greet him in the spring.
I came in ice-cold and drenched. Hot shower, bills paid and checkbook balanced, lunch and then a 2 hour snooze with electric blankie and 2 dogs to cuddle, and new agie music on the radio. And my elbow feels fine. 
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