...I am hoping that it will help you keep your courage while you are going through this.
Your heartbreak right now is something that may have to go on a little bit before you find peace. You will need people who are close to you for awhile and talking helps though it may seem like taking an aspirin for a toothache that could not be dulled with the strongest medicine. I had an elder relative as a young woman who actually took me into her arms and rocked me in her rocking chair like I was a baby and I cannot tell you how healing that was ~ but I did not realize how healing that action was until afterwards when my pain became a little more bearable, that she helped it far more than anything else had. We often want to be a brave adults and the "shame" we have that the scared child living inside of us that needs nurture at those times more than anything, can be something that we deny when of all times that child is the one that is crying and needing to be cherished. In truth seeking out the people who will enfold you, let you cry, be angry, and generally understand and accept you, is important.
It may feel like an eternity because the pain can be great, maybe seeming unbearable, but it is an important part of finding your essence (who you are). Still I remember how difficult it is to deal with it from my own heartbreaks over my 60 years. But because I am down the road in my life a ways now I have gained some insight, I can tell you those times were great learning periods that gave me insights I have used ever since. I was able to apply them to others I loved, and help them through their heartbreaks. Once I knew this was going to help others, it made the other heartbreaks that have some along, far more bearable. I am hoping I am sharing something I learned that will make yours pain a little more bearable as well.
I am keeping you in my thoughts and sending you Light. Hearts! 
Love,
Cat in Seattle
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