Guilt tripping [View all]
I'm dealing with an unexpected eruption of homophobia, hilarious in one aspect, major guilt trip regurgitating, even deadly serious in yet another. Had some PTSD nightmares last night, therapeutically getting it out of my system:
Nutshell PTSD: life threatening BS at the behest of close relatives of the Westboro idiots, long ago, ran away from home, had to survive street urchin homelessness circa 1976. A lot of therapy later... all good now.
Until I turned up to assist my brother with upcoming back surgery, in VA slow cog turning suspense for now.
Brother had subscribed to Roku TV. We'd watched some movies together, some had HETERO sexual content... no issues.
Then I brought up an LGBTQ channel movie. Oh, man. It had a brief nude scene between the main protagonist and his lover, suggestive of sexual relations to happen.
OMG my brothers wife freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeked out. Now the "unwelcome" mat has been firmly placed by brother's wife, complicating the shit out of this whole ordeal. My brother has no one else capable/city drivable/or has vehicle he can ride home flat and relatively comfortably when this happens.
Jeebus fluck the last damn thing I needed is regurgitation of past homophobic guilt trip shit, but here it is.
Brother laughs it off with me... oops... made the in-law even madder.
I'm at a mountain retreat till this whole ordeal is past. Worst aspect of all (tongue in cheek) now I must Google up that movie to find out how it ends.
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