Something I just learned about the heart...

[Manifestor_of_Light]

15. I will tell you about my experience with peoples' auras and the heart.

I have been a classical musician all my life. I have performed a lot in orchestras when I was young. I have also been in two amateur plays and sung in one amateur opera. I would like to learn to do standup comedy that is not gross or hurtful.

I have always done it out of love and creativity. The aura that performers have is real, I believe. It's called "charisma" or "stage presence". I've seen famous performers in many different kinds of music and plays and musicals, and standup. There is communication between the audience and the performer(s). I've been told that when I get on stage, I have stage presence.

One person that I have met after a performance was Lewis Black. His image is that of an angry old white guy. But he isn't specifically aiming his rage at anyone in particular. He is pointing out absurdities in our society. I believe that because his anger is not personalized, that it is not destructive. He is not tearing anybody down, except for making remarks about politicians, which are standard objects of derision due to their phoniness. He is not as linguistically sophisticated as George Carlin was, but he is doing the same type of social commentary humor that should make you think.

People who ridicule others, for example, Don Rickles, are ugly on the inside, I believe.

I met Lewis after a show once for an autograph, and he had a really sweet and positive aura about him. I just wanted to hang out with him and soak in that aura. He is good to his fans and takes his time to talk to everybody in line. I thought he was positively adorable.

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Second story about the heart: I had been divorced from a guy I met in college. We were both string players and I met him in college orchestra. It only lasted a year and a half total, and he was emotionally and verbally abusive to me. He was unfaithful many times and bragged to me about it to hurt my feelings. I moved home to a different city and got a waiver divorce from him in 1980.

His brother died unexpectedly. I knew his brother as an artist in my home city, after meeting him when I was married to his little brother. The brother had a studio in the same building where I was working with a group of women artists. He always laughed a lot at the soap opera that was his family, and I think he was wise to do that. I went to the memorial service, not having seen my former husband since 1979. This was in about 2007, I think. I had not seen him in over 25 years. After it was over, I went up to him and asked him if he knew who I was. He knew who I was, but couldn't remember my name.

I talked to him for about an hour. We didn't discuss the divorce. He was raised Reform Jewish, and I found out during this conversation that he had become a good person, who cared about other peoples' feelings, and was now a Methodist minister. He was also a minister of music. His attitude was completely changed.

The weird part was that I felt two invisible hands open up my ribcage and open my heart chakra. I felt a whole lot of pain fly out of my heart while I was talking to him. This feeling continued for about an hour and a half after I left the memorial service. The only words I had for it were "healing" and "extraordinary".

I have also felt the presence of evil in my stomach which is the solar plexus chakra. I felt that when I was trying to type up sermons from a minister that were on tape. I could not go on typing and I was drained just listening to this man, even though I did not know what he looked like and never met him. I never got paid for the typing I did do, either.


Just my two cents' worth of experience.