Anyone here?

[mopinko]

4. 1 year out from divorce after 30 years. it's been hard.

i actually kinda feel worse now that it's all over. that has more to do w how the kids, adults, sorted themselves out after it ended. 5 kids and only one talks to me. lots of mental illness behind that, which only makes it harder to take.

the last 10 years were yoyo back and forth. dont feel like it was a failure. it just ended. wish i had just done it 10 years ago.
very glad that we built enough to support me without him.

it was hard, and expensive. if you think you can get it done through arbitration, do so. i dont think i would have gotten what i wanted w/o suing. we had to beat the snot out of him to get a decent discovery.

finding being alone after having family around me all my life tough, for the most part. but am glad not to be walking on eggshells all the time.