the explosive rage has been nonstop [View all]
In the past, when I've felt explosive rage swirling and then release, I've checked to news to discover some major unexpected violence occurred somewhere, whether human or earth (eg the 8+ earthquake in Chile a couple years back).
This time round, there has been no end to it. It started a couple days before the Aurora shooting. No letup after that shooting, or the subsequent bombings, the temple shooting, the temple burnings, etc. There is at most a brief respite, and then it comes surging back.
It's been an inferno for 2-3 days now. In my personal terms, I've alternated between inner calm and receiving mode (more gotten detail on the real assignment I've chosen 
and sending mode (rage around my perimeter around work). they stiffed me the annual bonus *and* a day's pay. I never asked about the bonus. I was immediately blamed for the lost day's pay -- supposedly I hadn't filled out the payroll adjustment sheet when their online system was broken. Then when they stopped lying and actually looked at the sheet, found me on in the middle of the page not crossed out, and promised immediate compensation. That was 9 days ago; still no money. I'm sending mental threats to take it to the dept. of labor. There's been some discussion about me "gathering the goods" on them with the response that I haven't gathered anything, they've been shoving it down my throat.
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