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cancer. Almost 4 years on, the breast cancer shows no signs of coming back, so I don't think it's causing my complete lack of appetite. I have lost a few pounds. I see in my future, though, that I do run the danger of simply not ever wanting to eat. I'm already halfway there. Why?
First, like another poster, I have cooked for my family for 35 years. I have never liked cooking, but now I positively, absolutely fucking HATE it. I feel like crying every day at 4:30 --- argh, another fucking MEAL! If I lived alone I'd just have soup and a sandwich. Yep, every day.
I hate cooking. I hate it so much that I have lost my appetite entirely. I don't think that's the only reason -- GERD makes eating certain things unpleasant. Diabetes restricts many perfectly good foods that I used to love, such as good bread, sweet potatoes, brown rice, etc., so much so that I am totally sick of those things that diabetics CAN eat liberally: meats, fats, and non-starchy vegetables. Constipation means that certain foods can clog me up and make me miserable. And frankly, I think my age (65) has a lot to do with loss of appetite, too. I look in the fridge and say "fuck it" to myself.
I also drink a meal replacement called Boost Glucose Control for at least one meal a day, just so I don't have to prepare anything. To get my veggies and to not have to prepare them, I put them into a Tornado blender and drink them. It even irritates me to cut up a salad anymore; I just throw it all willynilly into the blender and make a smoothie that can be drunk down in a flash. It even irritates me to take time eating. I fare better at a good restaurant with delicious foods that I don't make at home. I have to pick wisely to not aggravate my conditions, but a good meal that somebody else cooked is quite fun. Otherwise, fuck food.
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