I have the same disease, alcholism. This sucks, and without treatment, it only gets worse. I want to help you understand.... Not everyoune who gets drunk, or blacks out some times, or does things they regret, are an alcholic, but you are. For you and me there comes a power of evil in the drink. It sucks, and believe me I know. Myself, 4 DWI's all most prison, an amazing drug court program, comunity service, many thousands of dollars in fees, inpatiant program, outpatiant program, half way house, transitional housing, outpatiant counsouling, and a year or two more of probation still. I am not able to do this all correctly still, but you know that you have this disease fujiyama. In the rooms you will find a will, strength, encouragement, that you wont find many other places. And mostly a power to fill the void of the drink. It really is what I cherish...... Good luck.... if you choose to do this you will find the answers you desire.
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