I'm hoping this forum will help...because I could really use some.

[cordelia]

2. Your story sounds familiar.

One exception is that I didn't have the foresight you seem to possess regarding where your problem may lead.

You've also made the all important first step in admitting you have a problem.'

AA has worked for me, these 19 months and counting. I'm not religious myself, but I am a believer and was open to the "God of my understanding" part. That certainly doesn't apply to everyone.

My home group has a number of atheists, agnostics, Christians, Buddhists, it's all very interesting to me that all are able to take something from the program that works for them.

If you're interested, AA's "Big Book" has a chapter addressed to the atheist and agnostic. It was realized by the founders that the "God thing" could be an issue for some seeking help.

As for your friends who still drink: I kept mine. They've been very supportive on my recovery and have no intent of ever turning away from them. And, I've met some extraordinary people in AA and am forging new friendships that I find very satisfying.

Admittedly, AA is the only program I have tried, but I am certain there are others that may suit your needs. They are worth exploring and I hope you will do that.

I wish you the best.