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In reply to the discussion: "Get out of the way": Obama calls on "old folks" in power to trust young activists, lawmakers [View all]jfz9580m
(16,297 posts)And this isnt about age. I agree with younger progressives way more than my own lame Gen X, Google will change the world! Yeah sure it will. Why is that a good thing? Look at the world around you. It has changed. Has it changed for the better?
Obamas politics are to my right, but he reminds me of my colleagues at my last work place. I dislike all of them, but they werent dishonest or sleazy. Its not clickbait material. I dislike them because I dislike neoliberalism and those who justify it and bring it into academia or expect people like me to bend to the will of misogynistic accelerationists and rearrange the deckchairs on the Titanic.
Very dull and far from lurid.
Just like Larry Summers was an Obama nominee and part of the neoliberal mess that got us here, they were neoliberals and the last people who should mess around with mental health as marketplace solutions.
If I could message them I would tell them I mean you no harm. Please continue to be lame. You wont be dragged in. But stay out of my way because when I can I plan to take action against my last host institution and a lot of the stuff since, but not with MAGA/MAHA and Trumpers piling on.
These alliances with stopped clocks dont go anywhere.
If Russel Vought and the creeps learnt from their mistakes during Trump 1.0, thankfully so has the left.
I am going to make my DU posts more coherent from here on out. I am grateful EarlG and to my fellow DUers for tolerating me. I have had a very rough 14 years.
I self deported from the US, when I could not endure the implications of California Ideology.
I am not planning on going back because that would be messy. I dont want immigration dragged into a case where it is a metaphorical issue more than directly relevant. I feel out of sync with most everyone everywhere routine stuff aside from.
Always did..But I used to plod along like my mom and her dad. We come from a family of lame bureaucrats or scientists and are camera shy and somewhat asocial. The last 14 years have been hell.
A world where activism is viral videos or endless compromises that are beyond the pale..I already compromise as much as normal humans do however radical my views would seem to those acclimated to a right shifted world, where with every shift we are told that its not more right-shifting.
I lost my mom in 2021 and that felt like the end of the world. But somehow I carried on for another 3 years.
With Trump 2.0..I have lost patience with the attitudes of moderates. Its one thing when its just an opinion. Its another when it keeps going towards real world consequences that are increasingly harsh on the best people in society (I dont mean me. I am hideous and not bothered by it as long as I am not on display. I mean people like my colleagues or friends or family or doctors or anyone who is kind to me. The best people I know who are strained when I am strained and I have been strained because of my horrible rightwing host (liberal academia! Bullshit) and people of their ilk.
It was one thing when it was only me. I could and did reason Maybe its me. I am mediocre, difficult, entitled, extreme, lazy etc. Because I am all those things. I cant be brutal with the worst people in society without being honest about myself. I dont sugarcoat things for myself nor call out anyone but the billionaire class or reprehensible elites, beyond shoving mobs or anyone who attacks me out of the way.
I mean you probably dont want to attack me as a general rule (I dont mean other DUers..within the community you can. I will grind my teeth and post a genuinely civil response. If I accept a community or a person I let it go..infighting is tiresome).
But I dont want to do the performative and frequently fascistic version of the shit I had to.
I am not dishonest, cowardly or insane and this period really tested my patience as I tried to endure this shit. I just wanted to be sure and I have seen enough.
And I was only confused by unfamiliarity with the strain of lunatic conservative BS I was dealing with. I knew the older Cheney version. This latest brand was unfamiliar. Now I am finally caught up.
Anyway, it was one thing when it was just me. When I started seeing it happen to so many people. People who deserve better either because they do their best or because they have real problems. The same cruel and demeaning stuff. Doge and the public servants. And on and on. And that culture is spreading everywhere.
That cannot happen.
I finally am at a real change point. I owe a huge debt to the left: DU, Current Affairs Magazine, Yasha Levine (he has helped me a lot.. he reminds me of some of my favorite colleagues in science, whom I avoid these days for their sake. These are some of the best people I know and I dont want them associated with me in any way. My onc or my other doctors locally are similar. I dont want the people who are actually holding this shit society together associated with someone whose politics arent palatable to what is currently mainstream or sucked into frivolous entertainment or gaming), Nandita Bajaj, Christopher Ketcham, Sam Miller, Nathan Robinson and Current Affairs, Amanda Marcotte, Andrew OHehir, Troy Farah and Chauncey DeVega.
I really hope I am anonymous, because I cant function as a (mediocre) scientist or activist without that. At this point i wouldnt care except that I find I cannot think that well around people or things unless straightforward or trusted (thanks EarlG/Elad/Skinner).
My thoughts have been a mess. I liked a graphic by DUer CrispyQ which also mentioned Indivisible. As Yasha Levine keeps saying, information without organization is no good. And not organization as in connection via a panicky ai agent
mediated..just something lame I saw earlier today about an ai agent that panicked and deleted an entire database.
Nathan Robinson also wrote about how Mangione or the Unabomber needed a movement to organize with.
But thats not easy as all serious activists would tell you and takes as much work as anything else.
But first you have to be clear on who you organize with and I am pretty clear on that head. And now I can let it all hang out.
Locally, a friend who is an animal rights activist and makes vegan sweets has helped me a lot. She is a tough lady. I love her.
My medical MJ company have helped me. That last is not an ad. Its horrible that such a triviality can be used to make life so hellish for so many people when alcohol is legal.
Like Sam Miller, Ketcham, Levine and like minded people I cant think like the neoliberal optimists. Maybe one can accomplish stuff. Maybe not. But one has to try ones best the real way.
My job is easier than that of many since my detestable former host has given me one easy task. They are a source of so much wrong with the world.
There was one scientist I met there who was the least awful of that lot. Its unfortunate..If I could have talked to him, I would have asked him to tell the rest of them to stay out of my way. I have no quarrel with them. Beyond general disagreeing with every view they hold outside routine science, the occasional stopped clock aside. But I will figure out how to do my part.
This is in a way a love letter to the left. They have really helped me over the years.
I am already moderate in any sane way. I have never resented my colleagues (my coworkers, any pi I have ever met and all doctors save for 5 shrinks. Dispassionately speaking, the pis and doctors and are some of the most intelligent and hardworking people I know and they arent jerks. I didnt and dont think they should go and do whatever it is an Immoderate person thinks. But none of that matters when a brutish Elon Musk comes along) for being successful.
What these companies peddle is a version of false hope that is antithetical to the real thing. Its sugary rot. But the preachy narrative that tells you its your fault as your life gets worse and worse is monstrous.
I said earlier that I am lazy, entitled etc. That is if going forward I dont pull myself together and pushback every way I can from here on out I would be annoyed at myself.
But I dont think thats true of you for any general you except our oligarchs and their sycophants or enablers. And least of all when you are struggling and barely managing.
My point is the if the best people in society (think Fauci and most decent pis I have met) are embattled when Trump and that cabal take over supported by the technofascists, it isnt surprising that the rest of us are doing this poorly.
Its not your fault (or mine) that your life sucks. Its their fault. They are assholes and they will drain you of all your life force and blame junk tech which is mindless as if there are no humans responsible for the junk tech.
Oh its just the machine. Oh its just this person way low down I pass the buck to.
No it isnt. Its the fault of the parasitic ceo class. Its the fault of bloated economists.
Its the fault of people who encourage neo nazis or other fascists and misogynists and throw pointless bandaids at the problem.
When you do better, its for you to decide as an adult if you are doing what you can. Aside from everything else, once you can, anything you can do to outrun these assholes will take you to a place of sanity and peace.
But we are battling is something really evil and its not skynet or Godzilla. It is this collection of sleazy douchebags who want to to make democracy, civil rights, womens rights, the public sector, regulation, environmental protections and every damn thing obsolete except a collection of sleazy little tech companies and a war and baby machine.
I feel as if I am in the bowels of some sort of virtual reality if not game ..some sort of ill conceived driven that is everywhere now. It is real and dully stupid and pointless.
I have never had any use for conspiracies or self aggrandizement.
But when you annoy me day in and day out with this worthless junk and then blame me, seriously you picked the wrong person to piss off.
People like me keep getting labeled fringe while these genuinely fringe guys are normalized constantly. Thats not sane.
I wasnt dogmatic anymore than I was immoderate. That made these confusing worldviews that are inconsistent and muddle abstract concepts and real world action so annoying.
I didnt think that shutting down discussions about the limits to growth or overpopulation (left or moderate) is sane. It means that only people like Nick Fuentes and MTG (actual Nazi sympathizers) or fraudulently hardcore Nazi sympathizers do it and they do it in the worst ways possible. And then when El Salvador looms or Roe v Wade is destroyed there is no one left to help. The narratives are all archaic and stuck in WW2.
You need new stuff that changes with the challenges of the time.
This has the feel of an ending for me personally because it is the end of the worst period of my life and the Stockholm Syndrome that went with it.
I still have to finish a paper and rebuild my old assertive self. My future looks very uncertain and so I am glad I have enough of a cushion that I dont need to please anyone but follow only what I think is the right thing to do.
I was better off than many. I am childfree and an only child. My parents had public sector jobs, pensions, healthcare so I could come back home and refuse to bend the knee to jerks while still doing my part for publicly funded science. I utilized all the things that MAGA and MAHA are destroying - due process, womens rights, pensions, healthcare, education with solid support from the technofascist wing (Google, Facebook, Palantir, Musks entire repellant outfit, Andreessen and all the morons skewered by Adam Becker in his latest book. Ad!). It was hellish but I survived.
But these systems and entities must not get away with this. It has become bad enough that they must be held accountable not just Trump and MAGA but the people who helped install them while pretending to be for progress.
One has to at least try
I am going to..
I thought I should clean and polish this up a bit since I plan to start a real change from here on out. But decided from the next post on. I have to start working on my real work which has taken a back seat to all this and which cannot be combined with this dreck.
I will get there. The sheer mindnumbing heartlessness and exploitation are sickening with these companies and those who enable them passively.
I was pleased to see this earlier this year:
https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/doge/federal-workers-fight-back-trump-dismantles-work-radicalized-rcna192040
I was never moderate, but I used to instinctively shoot to sound lame (I.e. moderate. No offense to moderates on DU..any outside DU can..). Or at least I was trying to come off that way. Not sure I ever succeeded. I think you sound insane rather when you try to sound like someone you cant understand.
Now I figure they would call one a radical far left lunatic feminist any which way..why bother with an act that never really worked?
A worm that doesnt turn now and goes back to that moderate swill and more lame self justification. Thats cruel to other humans. To keep encouraging this at the expense of womens rights, real decent civilian publicly funded natural and ecological science as opposed to everything being part of a war or pathetic entertainment machine that rots not just the brain but the soul.
Enough is enough.
I am a progressive. I am not calling for The Hague for randoms. I even forgive people from my parasitic former host provided they stay the fuck out of the way going forward. I am not for anything draconian except where it is truly crimes against humanity etc.
But you have to stand up for yourself.
This is too serious for more of this swill.
I really have seen enough.