End of Life Issues
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Mrs. Jackalope has had two independent medical assessments as required by law, and has been ruled eligible to receive medical assistance in dying. She will have the procedure on Tuesday, after the mandatory 10-day waiting period has expired. The consulting physicians were kind, empathetic, and caring beyond our expectations. They are doing everything in their power to ensure her a peaceful, pain-free death. The home care nurses who have come every day are similarly dedicated to her comfort. The entire palliative care system has performed in the highest traditions of compassion at every turn.
She and I have been meditating tonight on the amount of horror and misery that exists in the world. In contrast, the degree of privilege represented by our experience is breathtaking and humbling. That it is available without cost or question to an ordinary, impoverished middle class couple scrubs away the grimy crust of cynicism, to reveal the best of humanity.
enough
(13,454 posts)MuseRider
(34,364 posts)giving you what you need, even if you don't think you will need anything. I hope you have close friends you can depend on to talk this through later, you will likely need that even though at this point it may not seem you will. No regrets but just to process the loss.
I am so happy you have this ability. I would love to know it would be available for me when/if I need it. She will peacefully sleep but do not try to tough it out. I don't think you will but I don't know you. It is always harder to be in your shoes no matter how good it is to be able to do things this way.
I will be thinking of the both of you on Tuesday. Your wife, at least in the support, is a very lucky woman. Most of us would never have that support.
The_jackalope
(1,660 posts)I do have friends available for both the immediate and long-term aftermath. My brother-in-law went though my sister's cancer death 25 years ago, and has been a pillar of understanding and caring. My parents are still alive, and are both warm, thoughtful people, who have also been seasoned in this by my sister's death. I have two hospice counselors on tap.
I know that I'm facing the unknown, and there is no value in bravado. This is not a situation that one can simply tough out.
Thanks again.
tymorial
(3,433 posts)I can't imagine what you both are going through. I will keep you in my thoughts.
Voltaire2
(14,700 posts)Thank you for sharing your experiences with us.
CrispyQ
(38,238 posts)Zoonart
(12,746 posts)The beauty her spirit added to the world will not be lost on all those who have experienced it. I will hold you in my thoughts as I chant tonight. Namaste
3catwoman3
(25,430 posts)...best of humanity of which you speak. I wish I could have known about you, and known you both in person, in happier circumstances. You have enriched my life even though we have never met.
Your eloquent words are carved into my memory.
sinkingfeeling
(52,985 posts)Serenity
handmade34
(22,920 posts)my father chose to go his way last month -July 31... hospice and all people concerned (here in Vermont and at Dartmouth Hospital in NH) were wonderfully supportive...
mahina
(18,938 posts)aloha.
volstork
(5,593 posts)that you both are surrounded by love during the coming days.
elehhhhna
(32,076 posts)Marie Marie
(10,004 posts)Peace be with you both through this difficult time.
question everything
(48,797 posts)and wishing you both peace.
SonofDonald
(2,050 posts)While on home hospice, I know what you are going through and I'm so sorry.
Peace be with you.
hibbing
(10,402 posts)It takes a special person to work in hospice care. I have never heard a bad word about people who choose to work in the field. My personal experience with hospice caregivers was that they were all very professional and so caring.
Peace unto you
Honeycombe8
(37,648 posts)If the word luck can be used in this situation.
I hope all goes peacefully, and she goes gentle into that good night. I hope you are all right, afterwards, knowing that her trials are over and any suffering she went through.
I am so sorry for your situation. It may be harder on the one left behind. I hope you manage to do well afterwards.
irisblue
(34,249 posts)Brogrizzly
(145 posts)So hard what you are going through, my thoughts are with you.
Stuart G
(38,726 posts)Wishing both of you peace..
central scrutinizer
(12,441 posts)I wish I could give you a hug. Grief is an unpredictable roller coaster ride.
kimbutgar
(23,254 posts)herding cats
(19,612 posts)Please, lean heavily on your support network. You're in heart and in my thoughts.
Dustlawyer
(10,518 posts)In the last week I have seen and met many of the heroes you have seen on TV while going through the ordeal that was Harvey. I had many strangers help to unload from my canoe all of my father-in-law's salvaged pictures, papers, and other misc., stuff. We were wiped out and I didn't know how we would get his safe in the truck after literally dragging it a 1/4 mile up the flooded road. It was too heavy to get into the canoe. They were wonderful!
I have lost a son, but I cannot imagine going through what you two have to, but I am glad she will no longer suffer. I watched my dad suffer long past any desire to live like he was limited to, as were we, We put animals out of their misery but not people (small exception where you are). It it the right thing to do and I am glad you are both at peace with it to the extent that anyone can. It is a sign of true love that you are not selfishly trying to keep her around while she suffers, but it has to be hard to let her go.
I hope this helps some, I know DU really helped me get through the worst of Harvey. Peace and love for you both!
Warpy
(113,130 posts)I can see no reason to wring the last drop of misery out of illness just to satisfy someone who is projecting their own fear of death onto everybody else. When death becomes inevitable, there shouldn't be any reason to remain in pain.
Her passing should be quiet, without pain or fear and you'll have people around to help you cope.
And many of us will be here to PM afterward, if you need to.
chillfactor
(7,694 posts)bless you both and may her journey bring you both peace.
SergeStorms
(19,312 posts)I often wonder what I'd do, and how I'd feel, if something like this was taking place in my life. Good luck to you, and to your wonderful, caring, unselfish wife. Please don't forget about your DU family. We'll all be with you at that final moment, at least in spirit.
cilla4progress
(25,901 posts)Healing.
Safe passage. ❤️
radical noodle
(8,578 posts)slumcamper
(1,728 posts)You and your Mrs. are very special people. To spend the sweep of life and its far-ranging emotions together and arrive at the point you share with us is a testament to the best of the human story. The moment you feel and relate is all-too rare for most, and fleeting when it occurs. Savor it, dive deeply into it, as I know you will, and be richer for it. The ultimate becoming of one. Hold on for the journey, Jackpine; please know many of us are with you.
MFM008
(20,000 posts)And love to your family.
Skittles
(159,240 posts)Heartstrings
(7,349 posts)My condolences.....
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Freedomofspeech
(4,378 posts)Boxerfan
(2,533 posts)Her spirit will be free . And I firmly believe we can keep our loved ones alive in memory as a inner voice-don't be afraid to talk to her.
Love & good wishes.