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I really have no words ... I found my Dad, I wasn't able to comprehend anything for days. Make sure you have people around you right now. So, so sorry. 
Suicide is especially hard to take.
We'll be here when you're ready.
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kesha
Please post more when you are ready to talk. My sympathy to you and all who knew your friend.My dear and sweet friend and brother Mike was on a downward spiral since the crash. Was in construction. Lost it all. Biz, house, all of it. After his divorce 4 years ago he travelled hi and low, relocating from state to state wherever there was some promise. Only to have it fall apart in layoffs and austerity. Hard not to be depressed after such and so many changes for the worse. Went from a middle class homeowner w/a family, to a day laborer. Seeing it all around you. Alone. Living in shit shacks. Constant exhaustion and worry. Depression. He would not accept help from his friends, and could not get help elsewhere. We all tried. It was not enough. He had had enough, saw no point to it. Swallowed some pills with cheap booze. Went to sleep.
I'm still experiencing some cognitive dissonance. Hard to believe that I'll never speak to or hear or see this sweet soul again.
Thanks again, to all.
Just know that I care.
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kesha
Still get teary eyed when I talk or think too much about it.
Kind of angry about it right now. Angry about a wide spectrum of things that had happened to my dear friend that drove him over the edge. The horrors. The tragedy.
Nothing I can do about him now. It'll take a while to be able to smile and laugh at and cherish the usual memories of good times, but, it'll come.
Thanks for asking.