My fiancé, Mike W., died at 9 PM, May 2nd.
I'm asking for light and love from anyone who is able to send it. My heart is broken.
I met him last fall, when he was just coming out of his last chemo treatment for Stage IV lung cancer. We both knew it was not a good prognosis, but fell in love anyway. I spent the last four months taking care of him at my home, and two days ago he was not able to walk and had to go stay with his parents so they could help take care of him. He died barely a day later, after lapsing into a coma and very quickly dying.
I'm so sad I wasn't with him when he died. But I'm glad for him and his parents that he was with them, because to have him die here, in another state, would have been hard for them.
He was such a good man, so much the perfect mate for me. I'm sure I'll understand some day why this had to happen. But for now, I'm searching for peace.
NYC_SKP
(68,644 posts)Sending good vibes, PinkTiger.
Bluestar
(1,400 posts)I'm so sorry for your loss.
mwrguy
(3,245 posts)Please accept my condolences.
Granny M
(1,395 posts)Sending love, light and peace to enfold you.
FreeState
(10,692 posts)you showed true love and care, Mike is a lucky man.
NBachers
(18,131 posts)And may you life be filled with more blessings, too.
eridani
(51,907 posts)--than never to risk loving anyone at all
TexasTowelie
(116,768 posts)I'm sorry for your loss and I'm glad that you were able to share with each other.
Cha
(305,405 posts)together, PinkTiger.
Peace, Love & Aloha
vanboggie
(1,851 posts)I am so sorry for your loss. How wonderful you found each other to love.
Sanity Claws
(22,038 posts)I am so sorry for your loss.
Light and love coming your way.
yellerpup
(12,263 posts)Comfort and hope. You will never regret loving Mike and taking care of him the way you did. You are not alone; you are loved.
Delphinus
(12,145 posts)Oh my goodness ... I am *so* sorry.
I hold you in my heart as you walk this painful road.
May the angels hold you and help you find peace.
I am grateful you had him in your life, albeit for such a short time.
Triana
(22,666 posts)Your presence in his life in his last years was obviously a blessing to him and his family.
I do wish you peace.
Melissa G
(10,170 posts)Love and Light to you both! So sorry for your loss!
Ricochet21
(3,794 posts)May he find rest. I hope you can find love again. My thoughts are with you.
PinkTiger
(2,593 posts)Mike's love will sustain me for a long, long while. He was that special. My family loved him, and I loved his family, and it is all sad but OK. I feel somehow I was chosen to do this - take care of Mike in his last days. We talked about it often, how we felt we had known each other for centuries. We completed each other.
Cleita
(75,480 posts)You at least had some joy together before the inevitable happened. Of course my prayers are with your fiance and for you too.
indepat
(20,899 posts)Remember all the good and let yourself grieve.
Blue Owl
(54,734 posts)Sorry it had to be so brief...
magical thyme
(14,881 posts)I'm glad you had the time you did together, although it was way too short a time. You showed great courage and a great heart in opening yourself to love. Doubtless you made Mike's last months as joyful and loving as they could possibly be. He passed well loved and cared for...there is nothing greater we can ask for.
Cherish the memories and the time you had together. And know that you are loved in return...
applegrove
(123,116 posts)OneGrassRoot
(23,423 posts)There are no words.
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truebluegreen
(9,033 posts)wovenpaint
(1,472 posts)You've both been blessed by finding and loving each other. Nothing can take that away...nor does it end.
Peace.
kimmerspixelated
(8,423 posts)Blessings to you with love and light and a lot of hugs.
PinkTiger
(2,593 posts)He was such a dear man. I love him and always will. I want him here, I need him, but I also need him safe and happy and in no pain. And now he is that. Safe in the arms of the angels. I know the love we shared will sustain me. It was a true, deeply spiritual, and very fulfilling seven months we had.
southerncrone
(5,510 posts)Be thankful for the time you had together. I'm sure you gathered lots of good karma for taking such good care of him when he needed it most. Confident the Universe sent you to him when he needed an angel on earth . Your unselfishness in letting him go home to his parents will not go unrewarded. Look for good things to come your way, as he repays your kindness.
If only all of us could find someone like you!
Knightraven
(268 posts)I pray that peace comes quickly for you.
murielm99
(31,433 posts)I hope you find the peace you seek.
Sienna86
(2,151 posts)He was fortunate to have you in his life. Sending love and light.
Habibi
(3,601 posts)Oh, my dear heart. I send you an ocean of love and peace and healing. I wish I knew why these things happened--meeting and falling in love and then . . . I hope and pray that the purpose is revealed to you soon and that it brings you great comfort. Bless you, and bless Mike, and bless the love you shared.
PinkTiger
(2,593 posts)He gave me so much happiness, and taking care of him was such sweet pleasure. I feel my heart will never be the same.
BanzaiBonnie
(3,621 posts)I'm so sorry for your loss. a
It sounds like he was a wonderful person. And so are you.
moonbeam23
(340 posts)Mike had a beautiful light in his eyes...know that you knew him before and will be with him again...
And, as Southern Crone said, your Karma Bank account is full of good and will come back to you in all sorts of ways...
Good luck and bless you and yours...so sorry for your loss
midnight
(26,624 posts)Tumbulu
(6,445 posts)and am sending love and peace.
I am sure you will see and feel his presence all around you soon. He will be with you still.
NuttyFluffers
(6,811 posts)LiberalEsto
(22,845 posts)Manifestor_of_Light
(21,046 posts)Mnemosyne
(21,363 posts)onecent
(6,096 posts)Oh, just reading this is giving me goosebumps...please know my heart and prayers are with you and Mike's family.
Yes, I think someday the reasons will be given to us why we lose loved ones ...why bad things happen to good people...
Sending light and blessings to all.
Penny
PinkTiger
(2,593 posts)We got through the funeral fine, and now I'm trying to get my head on straight. I will be OK. I have Mike's love to sustain me. It was a true love story, from beginning to end. For that I'm extremely grateful. Thanks again everyone, and here's some light back.