Anybody here tonight? We lost our sweet baby girl dog on Wednesday.
I am wracked with grief tonight and unable to sleep. We had an in-home euthanasia so it would be easier on her, but I let them take her away to be cremated and I have never done that before. As the vet was leaving she said it would be 10 days to 2 weeks before we got her ashes back. I should have said NO right then, but we are both old and ill and unable to dig a grave. I realize now that we have friends and neighbors who would have helped do that.
I need the ritual of a funeral and burial for her. I have no closure, and neither does she. I even called the mobile vet tonight and left a message asking if we can get her body back. Keep the money. I just want her back! If it takes 2 weeks, where is she? In a freezer somewhere? I feel like I have let her down and not done the right thing at all. Is there anyone here tonight who can talk to me? The grief and remorse is unbearable. Help?
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I am so saddened to learn of your beloved companion pupper departing for the Rainbow Bridge.
Nothing else hurts as much as what you are going through right now.
I am glad you asked for her body to be returned, given your feelings.
Your sweet pupper likely doesn't mind that you sent her discarded body to be cremated. She was finished with it, after all, & you chose to have her ashes returned.
I asked the same question of the vet when our beloved rescue kitty passed over, as to why so long for ashes to be returned. I was told the bodies are kept in freezers until they have enough to fire up the furnace.
It felt awful to me to leave her at the vet's office after she passed, but grandson was adamant that he wanted her ashes in case we ever move.
Healing vibes are on the way to you. Sit, close your eyes, and think of her & you might well feel her with you. 
We all have our own.beliefs about the hereafter, but I have it on reliable authority that a dear friend has watched a person's essence leave the body after death, through the mouth, much like expelling a breath, but more slowly.
Either way, your beloved pupper has made fhe necessary adjustmsnts & is by your side &, perhaps most importantly, you know she is there with you. If you think about it, where else would she opt to go?
I strongly suggest reading "A Dog's Purpose.'
Hugs
I truly doubt it's too late
Aak friends for help.
It sounds as if you really need the time with her & the ritual of her burial for closure.
passed ten years before him. We had Scottie cremated and hubbie’s wish was that when his own ashes went out to the water next to our home, Scottie’s would go at the same time. So when my hubby passed, I took Scottie from his ceramic container (which was painted with his image), and both went swimming in the Florida bay, as per hubbie’s wish.
Their souls were not in the ashes. They are with me everyday.
Sorry for your loss.
in the past i have tormented myself during the agony of grieving with countless what-ifs and i should have done this/i should have done that.
and i understand your distress with the 2 weeks timeline. and hopefully when you speak to the vet they can better explain that process and either ease your mind or return her body.
you asked where she is and my guess is that she is right there with you, possibly a bit confused, probably adjusting to this change.
you did not let her down. you loved her and you'll continue to love her. and she will continue to love you. you had an in-home euthanasia to make it easier on her -- you did not let her down!
you can still have a funeral or memorial and bury her ashes or get a pretty urn and hang onto them.
please give yourself some grace. it's a heartbreaking and stressful time, move slowly and you'll find your way through this.
sending love and hugs to you and light and love for your little one
dreaded the time their beloved fur baby leaves them, and many have experienced that pain all too often. I certainly have and my current sweet Aussie/Border Collie is approaching 15 years, though stable right now.
Just know that we understand and are reaching out with virtual hugs and love. Tincture of time will help. For me, long walks listening to sad music to let myself cry as much as I wanted/needed, sans having people around for weeks, DID help. But it was 18 months (and arm-twisting by my local animal rescue) before I could even think of having another. Once I did, my Sophie did heal a big hole in my heart, so consider that for yourself and perhaps consider another when you are ready.
I am sorry.
welcome to DU Ihatcher2 
This week I am barely enduring the loss of two dogs and a parent one year ago. My darling Chi Chi and Daddy on the 9th and my sweet Butterbean on the 13th. So, I'm grieving with you.
Stay strong. Follow your heart.
We love you, Silver Gaia.
❤️
My love to you.
I had a similar problem with digging a grave. My husband is 81 and while he was willing to try, I did not want him to take the risk. And I am currently too ill myself to do it. In the past month, I have had major surgery, and am trying to recover from a case of Shingles that was triggered by the surgery. I know we did the best we could, but she deserved better.
Try to remember that she's no longer with her body, whether she's cremated or not. I really believe that we'll be reunited with our pets one day.
My heart is with you. (((((Hug))))
For your sweet girl 
You helped me make it through a deep, dark night. Blessings to you all.
I received word early this morning that she has been cremated. Unfortunately, by the time I woke up and saw the message after crying all night, they were closed and I will have to wait til Monday to get her ashes. But at least I know now.
I said I would post pictures, so here are a few of my favorites.
Cheeky baby Fionna (cutest puppy ever)
Baby Imp Fionna
Curious baby Fionna
My beautiful fullgrown girl, my sweet Fionna, age around 5 to 7
She was almost 15 years old now, could no longer stand or walk, and was in diapers. She had worn open sores on both her hips that could not be healed, and was in a lot of pain. I could tell she still wanted to live and be with us, and she tried so hard, but there was no recovery possible, just days and nights of endless pain. There was nothing else we could do to help her, and I know this in my rational mind, but the pain and regret is still sharp and deep in my irrational heart.
Thank you all so much for your kindness and compassion. You have helped me begin to heal.
I know the unbearable pain you're feeling over the loss of your precious girl. She was lucky to have you and you were lucky to have her. I hope that eventually your memories of your beautiful girl will bring you some comfort and peace. She will always be in your heart.
In the meantime, lean on your DU family as much as you want. We are here for you.
With deepest sympathy,
MIButterfly